The greatest unbelief that has ever been shown to me, is my desires.
Often it is said that we all want to become like the Father and the Son. We talk about how we all want to be in the presence of God again.
For a long time I really thought this was my desire. I thought I really wanted these things.
However in a matter minutes, one day God revealed to me, that this really wasn't my desire. That to have this as my desire, would require me to submit all things to the will of the Father, just as Christ did with His Father.
That, in fact, my desire was to become more like Satan than it was Christ. Anytime I pick my own will over the Father's, I am following the example of Satan.
When I first came to this realization, my instinct was to feel shame and embarrassment. This was quickly replaced with mercy, and a resolve from God to change my desires.
It has been a rapid change, it wasn't something that God took his time to do, it wasn't something that took decades to happen. It was something that God began changing, as soon as I came to the realization of what my desires really were.
This process has stirred up real self-reflection. Going through everything in my life and determining if it's my will or Gods will, and getting rid of what is a result of my will.
I'm truly grateful for God's love and mercy as he patiently helps me prioritize which aspects of my life need evaluation.
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