???????????? Things are seriously getting stranger everyday! Can anyone offer any help. After reading Julie Rowe's books and now this, I am seriously suffering from severe anxiety attacks. It's not her fault but I am terrified and sorrowful of the horrific things she described are coming. I know God is in complete control but a part of me is screaming inside for the disabled, the children, and the elderly who will be abused, tortured, and murdered. I can hardly stand to breathe some days and cry A LOT and ask God WHY it has to be this way. Did I really in pre-earth life shout for joy for THIS? Did I really have a knowledge of the events of the Last Days and the horrific perils our generation would be facing and I was okay with that? Honestly, I don't want to be here and wish I didn't exist at all some days.
When I first heard about Julie Rowe and her experiences, I felt like my bubble had popped and I couldn't get back inside. It turned my whole world upside down. Then I read Visions of Glory by John Pontius - and there was a part that overwhelmed me so much that I sobbed and sobbed and just wanted to be held. I didn't want to finish reading it, but the next morning I decided to give it another go and I was able to finish the book....and it really is more about the glory than misery. Actually - Spencer's experiences are quite amazing. I was later talking with a friend and she said she went through the same grieving process that I've been going through. That was actually very comforting to hear that It was normal to feel the way I was feeling. (This grieving has been within the last 2 or 3 months - so it's still fresh). However, I've realized some very important things. 1. Pray for help - I felt very unsettled about JR's recent Wasatch Wake Up earthquake message and I prayed to know how I should feel and the next day I realized I had peace in my heart and I didn't have the fear that had consumed me. 2. Remember to keep drinking daily from the scriptures... 3. Read or listen to general conference messages, and 4. Remember that faith and fear cannot coexist. Satan wants us to be fearful and he wants us to feel terror. Cast him out, if needed. We are NOT alone!!! Heaven is watching over us and miracles happen everyday. Satan wants us to give up, he wants us to feel dread, he wants us to wish we didn't exist at all. He wants us to have fear instead of faith. Don't let him have that satisfaction. You are a child of a loving God who is incredibly mindful of you - and you have ability to pray for help and kick out the fear and dread. I would highly recommend that you read The Message by Lance Richardson. It is a short read and has a very powerful message. I would also recommend that you google "David Warwick visions" and listen to the Vimeo video someone posted of an informal fireside he spoke at in 2015. There is so much more I could share, but I hope this info will be helpful to you - because I know it has helped me. I felt my prayers were incoherent that night I was praying for direction and peace about the EQ JR stuff, but despite my imperfections and feeling like I didn't know the words to pray, I was given peace and have since had ideas about how I can prepare myself and my family for the unknown future ahead.
THANK YOU SO MUCH! I will do the things you have been inspired to tell me to do. There are days where I feel like I just don't know what to do with myself and wonder if I'm even worthy of divine help/protection. Do I have some awesome work ahead of me like Julie and Spencer?.. or am I really not that important in the grand scheme of things because it seems like everyone has it all figured out.
I know you're right that these are questions only God can answer for me. I know you're right that Satan will capitalize on my fears and anxiety. I just wish God would take the innocent from here who can't help themselves like the severely mentally disabled/crippled, small children.
It's kind of like in the movies when the super hero knows the innocent are in a safe location and then goes to open up a can on the villain.
You have given me hope to cast Satan out verbally and live for God in love and service. To let him know the desires of my heart and to take it all to Him and lay it at His feet and let Him deal with it.
I suppose Julie and Spencer have a harsher reality to deal with. They've SEEN what's coming and know they will be a part of it and have to keep moving forward as well.
I totally understand your "incoherent" prayers. Sometimes I feel like I'm babbling and my prayers are not leaving the room.
THANK YOU SO MUCH for taking the time to try to help me. God bless you and yours and keep you safe, at peace, and led by His Spirit. I hope one day to give you a big hug when this is all over with. Whether in this life or the next, look out, one major hug coming for helping me to calm down. The world needs more good souls like you!
I apologize that my response is delayed. You are so very welcome! I look forward to the hug :) I'm so glad I followed the prompting to write about my emotional journey and I'm so grateful that it helped you!! I am always humbled about the amazing things that happen when I follow promptings from the Holy Ghost - and I'm also humbled when others act on promptings to help me. It helps me remember how perfectly mindful our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are of us personally. I also wanted to say that by reading your patriarchal blessing - you will be reminded of their love for you AND you can gain insight about your important role (which is just as important as Julie or Spencer's roles) - regarding the specific ways you will help your family and loved ones as we go through this journey of life in the last days as the world is prepared to receive the Savior of the World. Best wishes dear new anonymous friend. Sending hugs your way! Leisha (LOR)
I apologize that my response is delayed. You are so very welcome! I look forward to the hug :) I'm so glad I followed the prompting to write about my emotional journey and I'm so grateful that it helped you!! I am always humbled about the amazing things that happen when I follow promptings from the Holy Ghost - and I'm also humbled when others act on promptings to help me. It helps me remember how perfectly mindful our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are of us personally. I also wanted to say that by reading your patriarchal blessing - you will be reminded of their love for you AND you can gain insight about your important role (which is just as important as Julie or Spencer's roles) - regarding the specific ways you will help your family and loved ones as we go through this journey of life in the last days as the world is prepared to receive the Savior of the World. Best wishes dear new anonymous friend. Sending hugs your way! Leisha (LOR)
???????????? Things are seriously getting stranger everyday! Can anyone offer any help. After reading Julie Rowe's books and now this, I am seriously suffering from severe anxiety attacks. It's not her fault but I am terrified and sorrowful of the horrific things she described are coming. I know God is in complete control but a part of me is screaming inside for the disabled, the children, and the elderly who will be abused, tortured, and murdered. I can hardly stand to breathe some days and cry A LOT and ask God WHY it has to be this way. Did I really in pre-earth life shout for joy for THIS? Did I really have a knowledge of the events of the Last Days and the horrific perils our generation would be facing and I was okay with that? Honestly, I don't want to be here and wish I didn't exist at all some days.
ReplyDeleteWhen I first heard about Julie Rowe and her experiences, I felt like my bubble had popped and I couldn't get back inside. It turned my whole world upside down. Then I read Visions of Glory by John Pontius - and there was a part that overwhelmed me so much that I sobbed and sobbed and just wanted to be held. I didn't want to finish reading it, but the next morning I decided to give it another go and I was able to finish the book....and it really is more about the glory than misery. Actually - Spencer's experiences are quite amazing. I was later talking with a friend and she said she went through the same grieving process that I've been going through. That was actually very comforting to hear that It was normal to feel the way I was feeling. (This grieving has been within the last 2 or 3 months - so it's still fresh). However, I've realized some very important things. 1. Pray for help - I felt very unsettled about JR's recent Wasatch Wake Up earthquake message and I prayed to know how I should feel and the next day I realized I had peace in my heart and I didn't have the fear that had consumed me. 2. Remember to keep drinking daily from the scriptures... 3. Read or listen to general conference messages, and 4. Remember that faith and fear cannot coexist. Satan wants us to be fearful and he wants us to feel terror. Cast him out, if needed. We are NOT alone!!! Heaven is watching over us and miracles happen everyday. Satan wants us to give up, he wants us to feel dread, he wants us to wish we didn't exist at all. He wants us to have fear instead of faith. Don't let him have that satisfaction. You are a child of a loving God who is incredibly mindful of you - and you have ability to pray for help and kick out the fear and dread. I would highly recommend that you read The Message by Lance Richardson. It is a short read and has a very powerful message. I would also recommend that you google "David Warwick visions" and listen to the Vimeo video someone posted of an informal fireside he spoke at in 2015. There is so much more I could share, but I hope this info will be helpful to you - because I know it has helped me. I felt my prayers were incoherent that night I was praying for direction and peace about the EQ JR stuff, but despite my imperfections and feeling like I didn't know the words to pray, I was given peace and have since had ideas about how I can prepare myself and my family for the unknown future ahead.
ReplyDeleteTHANK YOU SO MUCH! I will do the things you have been inspired to tell me to do. There are days where I feel like I just don't know what to do with myself and wonder if I'm even worthy of divine help/protection. Do I have some awesome work ahead of me like Julie and Spencer?.. or am I really not that important in the grand scheme of things because it seems like everyone has it all figured out.
DeleteI know you're right that these are questions only God can answer for me. I know you're right that Satan will capitalize on my fears and anxiety. I just wish God would take the innocent from here who can't help themselves like the severely mentally disabled/crippled, small children.
It's kind of like in the movies when the super hero knows the innocent are in a safe location and then goes to open up a can on the villain.
You have given me hope to cast Satan out verbally and live for God in love and service. To let him know the desires of my heart and to take it all to Him and lay it at His feet and let Him deal with it.
I suppose Julie and Spencer have a harsher reality to deal with. They've SEEN what's coming and know they will be a part of it and have to keep moving forward as well.
I totally understand your "incoherent" prayers. Sometimes I feel like I'm babbling and my prayers are not leaving the room.
THANK YOU SO MUCH for taking the time to try to help me. God bless you and yours and keep you safe, at peace, and led by His Spirit. I hope one day to give you a big hug when this is all over with. Whether in this life or the next, look out, one major hug coming for helping me to calm down. The world needs more good souls like you!
I apologize that my response is delayed. You are so very welcome! I look forward to the hug :) I'm so glad I followed the prompting to write about my emotional journey and I'm so grateful that it helped you!! I am always humbled about the amazing things that happen when I follow promptings from the Holy Ghost - and I'm also humbled when others act on promptings to help me. It helps me remember how perfectly mindful our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are of us personally.
DeleteI also wanted to say that by reading your patriarchal blessing - you will be reminded of their love for you AND you can gain insight about your important role (which is just as important as Julie or Spencer's roles) - regarding the specific ways you will help your family and loved ones as we go through this journey of life in the last days as the world is prepared to receive the Savior of the World. Best wishes dear new anonymous friend. Sending hugs your way! Leisha (LOR)
I apologize that my response is delayed. You are so very welcome! I look forward to the hug :) I'm so glad I followed the prompting to write about my emotional journey and I'm so grateful that it helped you!! I am always humbled about the amazing things that happen when I follow promptings from the Holy Ghost - and I'm also humbled when others act on promptings to help me. It helps me remember how perfectly mindful our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are of us personally.
DeleteI also wanted to say that by reading your patriarchal blessing - you will be reminded of their love for you AND you can gain insight about your important role (which is just as important as Julie or Spencer's roles) - regarding the specific ways you will help your family and loved ones as we go through this journey of life in the last days as the world is prepared to receive the Savior of the World. Best wishes dear new anonymous friend. Sending hugs your way! Leisha (LOR)
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ReplyDeleteWhere is this at the cannery? I was just there 2 weeks ago and didn't see this. I could have passed it up though.
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